Wednesday, March 21, 2012

I have also came a long way , would i be giving up only at the last moments ?

I have so much woes , i need cash for here and there. So many hobbies to sustain . I wonder sometimes why i have so many hobbies. Is it to fill the emptiness inside me. I really wonder.

My5d2 is damaged, i was quoted 500 dollars for the repair . Changing of the body , the magnesium body.. OMG, i initially thought it would cost only about 200 dollars. Who in the world would have known it cost so much.. I have to constantly remind myself to be careful . I always damage things. ):

After 3 years in the force, i realized i don't like it. I don't dare to express it thinking that i would cause a chain reaction of loss in opportunity. You tell some old birds in the force that you don't like working there ? Thats the same as insulting what they have been doing for the past years. But the thing is that they don't understand that things change and with time , everything change. People like us don't really care much about defending singapore as a first priority. We want CASH and job fulfillment. The higher ups in the Airforce isn't really encouraging us to study. They won't give a damn even if u wish to . To them, they like you to be in diploma, they want you to stay in the force for as long as you can.. Squeezing every ounce of juice out from you.

Take example for today, i have lesson at SIM, but i bloody hell can't go . WTF. Damn sian, moreover its a lab day. I want to quit the force so badly. What can i do after i leave the force? I wonder sometimes to myself. I have to carve another path . But at least, i won't be taking the path that has already been taken. I wish to be different.