Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Wednesday dazz-- alexis bday
i've got got connected back online.. darn, my lappy suddenly print out a blue screen saying that i have a fatal error. And i was just halfway blogging.. geez, i hate to retype back all those stuff. I was going on about how happy i was when i saw the familer faces during alexis bday. And how longing i want to have that warm.
I have been feeling very lonely recently, sisters are at convent, father working and benjamin's all alone at home when there isn't any archery trainings. Well, it seems as though that archery is my only sport that keeps me going. I wanna excel in Archery..
It's raining now, as i look out of the window and i smell the rain, i remembered the good old times i had in boys town. We were totally crazy and we all went all out into the rain; played with it, threw at each other. I felt natural under the rain.. i feel wonderful.. --- Water.. Water makes me feel alive, makes me wanna be myself . That is one of the reason why i joined Life Saving Club too..
Posted by dear benji at 2:04 PM
Monday, August 28, 2006
flo bday
I wanna start off by saying that Florence Bday went well.. We had loads of fun.. We were wanting to watch a horror movie, but Guan Zhao was so Anti -(that horror movie), reason being is that it only has only 2stars rating on 8days magazine.
But before the espisode on the movie thing, we went to play CS; counter strike. Wah, damn fun man.. haha, i want my bday to be like that also leh.. hahaha. I guess we all enjoyed the 1.2hrs spent at the lan shop. HengWei was there. ahhem, he was so so hyper active.. that guy arh.. always like that. But JiaLin not there lar, she has exams the next day.. ahh, a loss for us.
Oh, i forgot to say that Biling was sick.. she didn't come, i had to hear it from others. Haiz, anyway.. Zakir is my next upcoming offical advisor, hmm.. on what; you guys dun have to know.. something kinky, hehe.. that bugger.. cartoon lar! Zakir ahhh
For dinner, we went to my fav place.. the glasshouse!!! besides parkmall.... I had the seafood platter($18.90), wah.. very nice lar.. yummy.. Then the crew sang bday song for florence and even give her an ice cream.. yummy... i jealous leh.. i also wanna go eat there during my bday.. i still can remember the texture of the ice cream, that one spoon that she offer. ahhh, heavenly!!! We took so many pictures oustide glasshouse , funny pictures man. We posed at the big LOVE word located just outside. We went all round "LOVE" taking pictures.
i still haven't deceided where to have my bday, i think i am celebrating with Emy and Andrea. haha, andrea on 30aug, both emy and i on 1st sept..
Posted by dear benji at 11:51 PM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
A bit too late bah??(Pictures from fireworks)
Theses are taken one day before National Day, but it took some time before i could post it.. hah, it was a beautiful view.. hmm, i love it! My first time looking at fireworks in such a close proximity. I included a picture of Han wei and Shanti.. They both look pretty cute together.. haha, i'm not suggesting anything , just that i think it's cute..
Posted by dear benji at 2:16 PM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
This is how i look when i was SEC 1
This was how i looked when i was sec one... haha, bery funny le with that hair.. Not bad lar.. The one besides me is my best friend, haha jonathan. well, he is currently in Singapore Poly.
I had a good game of basketball in school with lammy, justin and kenneth. Than we jio a group of ppl playing basketball. They all ham sia, wah kao, say later but in the end never come. Than we wait for so long.. We are not that good as well, haha.. And later part i saw a guy playing on court 2 where there isn't any hoop. I see poor thing so i asked him to join us. And wah lau , it turns out that he is from our school's basketball team.. WOah, he is pretty good with fakes and on top of that he is tall. Well, not very tall, perhaps 15cm taller than me. But he sure can jump..
Tml, we are going to swim in school. haha, we are getting the ppl in class to strip.. and jump, into the water.. I can't wait to swim, it has been such a long time since i since i did that. I plan to join the Life Saving Club in the next sem.. i wanna swim better, so that when ppl ask me this classic question"if your gal friend and mum drown at the same time, who will you save?" haha, i will reply "i have a life saving cert, so i will save both of them" a pretty good answer to prevent scolding from your gal friend and mum.. heh
Posted by dear benji at 6:39 PM
Monday, August 21, 2006
Bleach and Naruto
Oh no.. Bleach esp 63; shows that Rukia was so unlucky. She met a bounto and she's really strong.. but of course it's all to the spirit particles in Soul Society. That female bounto has a fan and a sword, both chained up together to do repetitive attacks. Uh, thanks to Rukia's brother.. she was saved. Her bro was so so cool; impressive, i should say and that i feel he has the best bankai. "scatter". I can't wait for this week's Bleach.. argh!!!As for Naruto, they had a replace. As in they claimed that fillers will end soon and all that crap, i'm feeling very fed up. Haiz, and for this week, they failed to put up a esp so they subsitute it with naruto the movie 9. In this Naruto esp 197; Konoha was under attack, someone sneaked into konoha while they were repair the village after thath snake guy came and destroy it. So when they repair the village, alot of carpanters are needed, that guy acted as he was a carpenter and than stole the blueprints of the village. A team of shinobi were sent to guard the area. Naruto and friends were place in charge of finding back the stolen blueprints. And it ended like that; to be continued..
I will rate bleach 9/10 this week and Naruto 8.5/10. So far i am very satisfied with what Bleach has been offering. It has a very nice story line to it. For naruto, aiyo. too long winded lar, the comic is already showing Naruto battling with that snake guy..
Posted by dear benji at 4:11 PM
NO MORE PAPERS!!!
I am feeling so darn light after the exams.. uhhhhhh, those hectic period; late nights and also lots of coffee.. hehe, i dun really like coffee, but Audrey says it works and it keeps her awake so i decided to do the same.. Ahh, i slept at 2.30am last night, phew.. at that point i can't take in anymore infor.. Anymore of those will result in me staring in blanks and later sleeping in the exam hall.For the past few days, i haven't been having a good sleep.. I am feeling anxious, so tense that i have been dreaming of archery.. haha.. I feel a bit crazy doing that but i just can't stop feeling that way.
I've been kicked out of my league, I am not in the top 3 for 30m anymore.. geez, there is Jay, Guan zhoung and HAn wei.. I must get back there, haha.. i wanna hit 320 now.. I have a feeling that i can do it. Will have to try damn hard.. as for 50m, i am still the highest.. i have a feeling that i can still improve on that results. I need to have at least 260 for my 50m.
"Ten percent luck, twenty percent skill, Fifteen percent concentrated power of will, Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain , And a hundred percent reason to remember the name.." - Fort Minor
Posted by dear benji at 2:02 PM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
maths exam tml
With exams just one day away, i decided to just chilli and be confident of what i have been doing so far. I know i will pass, but er.. i dun think i can get a A. =(I just remembered jen is in RJC, she should know some ppl from Archery club. i think i can make it to National Selection. I called aunt today, she was happy that i called. I'll drop by her office on 1sept, hehe, i have to claim my bday gift from her. hahaha.. Evil; ain't I? I have 2 more weeks to my bday, i wanna take my driving liscence, haha.. once i get that, i will take that van from my daddy.. i can drive my good frens ard!!!! WEEEEEEeeeee.. ah, i do sound like a small kid trying to achive their little dreams that seems so BIG to them.
Hmm, do girls like to be complimented? How would they like to be complimented? haha, i am just curious. I am going through some undescribable feeling now. hah.
Time is 8.30pm; lib is closing again.. Time passes so fast, my mum always tell me you can buy everything in the world but you just buy time, even if you have loads of money, there is just no way you can buy time.. (i'll rememeber that mum)
Posted by dear benji at 8:21 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Yawn! Inferior Complex
ahh.. i just woke up from my sleep. The time is now 8.22pm and i am in the lib. argh! my neck hurts.. stiff neck from the sleep i guess..I met fee fee again and i did maths and a bit of EL Tech today.
Hmm, i would like to talk a bit about inferior complex today. I remembered i felt such feelings were at suoercamp when everyone were super rich and also smarter than me. When i say smarter than me, i mean they are in Express of Special- like suejen, melissa, priscilla. Argh, i feel so out of place.That was also one of the reason why i didn't make that move . I didn't go after Melissa as soon as the camp was over. But 3 yrs later when i spoke about that to her, she went: " you idiot, i did liked you at that time" haha, that was a lesson learnt for me. I really liked her during sec2,hmm.. that was so long ago, nvm about it. There are so many girls in the world.
Anyway, i've never had a girl friend before. Anyone interested please feel free to TAG. Haha.. Just like Han Wei who never had a gal friend , hmm.. Han wei is not excatly bad le, but how come still no gal fren? hmm, maybe he flirt ard too much? Too high expectations? I have a feeling that he will get married at a pretty young age. This is based on my intuition. =)
My bday is coming, Audrey won't be able to meet me on 1 Sept but she meet up on Sunday . We'll celebrate after church. Anyway, no difference, i am still gonna see her on a friday for our normal sessions. Djong, won't be able to meet up too, he says he has a date with a girl; hah, that guy arh.. cannot believe him de. Always talk cock.. Than other than that, i may go visit my mum's grave. ARGH, i haven't done that for a long time. I am afraid to break down and cry, because that makes me feel weak. I haven't felt weak and vunerable for a long time.
Lib closing, gotta go..
Posted by dear benji at 8:25 PM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
ahhhh, i studied today
woah, before i brag abt me studying , i just want to let you guys know that it's 10.25pm and i am still in school, hehe..I met fee fee, my sec sch good fren , we studied at level3 in the lib, i didn't plan to meet up with him but things just happen, we are back to good buddies.. ahhahaha. We caught up with each other's life =) it's nice.. Anyway, i am feeling so hot and stuffy in the atrium, argh.. the lightings are killing me..
I manage to do quite alot, all maths questions. I had fee and his friends to help my out along the way, THANK YOU FEE FEE.. haha, it sounds like a girl's name.. I am going to have my remedial tml at 10am till er, perhaps 12pm. After that comes lunch and than back to fee fee with studies. I felt that i ate alot today, at 2.55pm, i was at my dad's shop eating chicken rice, than after that i went over to school. And soon, fee fee was hungry; decided to take up the student's meal/offer which was $5.90, (THAT WAS WITHOUT GST,WTH). After GST was $7.20.. argh! i feel cheated.. =p
Argh, the lights are out at the atrium, i gotta run. It is so damn dark here, and insects that are attracted to light are flying towards my screen.. eeee, a big one.. okie gtg.
Posted by dear benji at 10:11 PM
Monday, August 14, 2006
Reached my GOAL!
Yes!! i finally reached my goal of hitting 300. On sunday, i hit a total of 302 on 30m. Than soon after that i hit 244 on 50m. I am going to set another goal, which is to hit 320 for 30m and also 270 for 50m. haha, i am not asking too much for myself, it is achiveable!LakeHouse was a nice movie, i liked it alot. I have to admit that it was a touching story. And hehe, i cried. argh!! i know, i know.. most of you guys would have commented that i was predictable..
I called suejen just now, hmm.. she's still the same i think .. not much has changed.. hehe, i just hope that she will do well in her upcoming exams. Oppps, i forgot to intro a new charcter in my blog. Suejen's my camp mate in supercamp since 2002(if i remembered correctly), and we've been keeping in contact. We good friends, very good friends.. I miss you. =)
Posted by dear benji at 11:22 PM
Friday, August 11, 2006
Rukia!!! Audrey!!!
I'm now looking at Rukia's amv as i am writing this blog. Haha, i like her sad face, it portrays alot of unsaid words. The person who drew her was really good. Haha, i also like her when she smile. I mean the cute part of her is that she isn't that sort that would act cute. So when she acts cute, it is really weird and you can see that she is trying to be cute. hehe...ahhahah, now i am watching the latest esp; 92.. yeah!!
Today was good, i manage to get some psychologiocal help from audrey. hehe, visualising technique in archery. i'll try. haha, this is what i called sports psychologist! hehe. I think the session was pretty good. It seems that things are getting better, boundaries etc..
Tml is our usual sat training, no doubt it is optional, i think most of the members will be there. My aim for tml is to hit my 310 score, i believe i can do it. And as for 50m, i hope to hit 250.
Now i am watching naruto 196, latest esp too.. haha, i really love these two animations, really good. How do i define good anime? hmm, good anime makes me cry and laugh, that is how i usually define good anime. Well, the fact that i cry goes to show that the anime manage to bring out human emotions well. hehe...
Posted by dear benji at 11:19 PM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
fireworks .. weeeehheeeee!!!
Agrh.. it was a nice view of fireworks. But in the bus while we were going to esplanade, i felt like shit. I knew i would get motion sickness yet i still went on ahead. I was looking forward for the fireworks. That was the first time i saw real fireworks up close (was it close?).
The lady sitting besides me in the bus was so scared of me that she went over to another sit. So sorry, i almost vomited infront of her and she was like "oh shit!! God save me". Lucky i didn't sia, if not she would have cursed and sweared. Than next when we board down the bus, i saw that huge crowd. And i ask myself what did i do to deserve this, i just hate the idea of squeezing into the crowd, makes me feel so tight up in my throat. It reminds me of the hectic days in taka where during christmas and new year seasons; i had to serve customers all the way up to 10pm. I hate that feeling, i vomited on the 3rd day of chirtmas serving customers. That feeling sucks. That sucky feeling came back when i was in the midst of the crowd.
You should have seen my face.. arh, you can see it on the pic.. haha. i look as though i had a bad experience. I hope i didn't spoil the mood among us that day. I feel really bad, i think they would have enjoyed it more if i wasn't there. I can't go to crowded places.. Sorry guys, if i made it a "not so good" experience for you. Sorry to Guan Zhuo also, i should have help you take a picture with the group, it was after that when you went home that i notice that you didn't manage to take a picture with us. I felt bad .
Anyway, i felt that the fireworks was amazing! I hope mum was around, than i can bring her along to see those fireworks. I'm sure she hasn't been so close to fireworks before.. I remembered when i was young we will always take my dad's car and go for a ride in town hoping to see the fireworks during National Day, but we never did see the fireworks due to the jam except to hear the fireworks sound. We told ourselves to go again next year but she never was able to make it. When i have a family, i will make sure they get to see fireworks up close. Closer than what i saw the other day. =)
Audrey, you were right. I looked like a complete idiot and like what you said"small children" when i sulk and go in cirlces which i always find it hard to get out of. haha.. i never believed what you had to say till now. SO sorry, i learn to appreciate you even more. I believe it's a little too late now.
Posted by dear benji at 12:16 AM
Monday, August 07, 2006
Break my record!!
YEAH!! i manage to break my record yesterday. 30m on 122 cm face i manage to get 292 upon 360. My previous high score was 279, i hope to do much better in time to come. This thursday, i plan to shoot above 300.. that is my goal. If i were to shoot well in pesta sukan i can get into the nationals scheme. That will bring glory to Boys Town, Ngee Ann, and to all my coach =)What i am today is all because of Audrey, Sunny. hmm, that is the only 2 names that i can remember. But of course , Audrey had a larger role to play.. i miss her, she came back from malaysia yesterday at 8.13pm.
i think i am able to make it to the competition for SAFRA indoor , because my exams ends at 21 Aug is 28 Aug. So far i have only 2 exams. ELTECH and EG1. Wahhahaha...
To the seniors out there, dun feel so bad. We'll try to win something back.. hehe.
Posted by dear benji at 5:47 PM
Training on SAT
Well, i feel that the training on sat was good. i manage to do warm up as a team. Florence and Rasmi commented that it was good. Because they havn't done warm-up as a team for a long time~ since Andrew's time.OMG, i did not expect us to be shooting 50m 122cm face than 30m 12cm face for pesta sukan. i mean this is totally sucide! Biling's poundage is only 23. how to hit the 5om target? wah, die le lor.. hmmm, that goes the same for florence too and a few of them.
I told florence abt that yesterday and she freaked out. She said that she dun want to shoot in pesta sukan if that is the case. She said that i was lying to her!! FLORENCE! i won't lie on archery matters!
Let me see hmm..
- T-shirt size done
- Team selection done
- Individual selection done
- ahh, training schedule after exams - NOT DONE
i will do number 4 later..
Posted by dear benji at 12:56 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Wonderful saturday!
wah, training went according to plan. pretty smooth. just that we did not have enough time to have 2 sets. So we went for 1 set instead. After which we had a mini competition within ourselves. Very fun wor! But aiyah. i got kicked out lo.. Biling and frens gotten their bow already.. haha- see!!! when i cross my fingers i can make things happen. i hope they train hard for upcoming competition.Somehow, i dun have confidence in winning any of the medals in pesta sukan.. i will try my best though =) as for the juniors, i see some good ones.. i have a feeling that they can win. Later, i am going down to shoot at flamming arrows again. Biling won't come becasue she has projects, rasmi might come, han loon is coming.. and the rest is like silia , eddy they all luh. i am getting all excited for competition man.. hahahahahahaha. I am going to work hard for it.. this is my "self rule" for ppl who watch Naruto, you'll know the deeper meaning of it. i wanna let ppl know that i'm a genius of hardwork .
LAst friday, thanks to Zakir i manage to do my programming project- array string. Woah, he was of good help man.. if i was a gal, i would have thrown myself onto him. Gals out there, if you wish to know a nice malay guy.. call me, or tag me.. i'll pass you his number =)
After programming project, i went along with jialing to her lecture. They were having some kind of revision, so i was happy that i went for it, coz i felt that i benefited much. I saw faizal there, i am disappointed in him man.. argh, he was with a bunch of noisey guys, probably from his class. And in lecture hall they were eating and talking on top if there voices. WTH.. This is so sickening!
I bought my whistle!! i can blow commands now. I dun have to shout, so tiring.. i'd rather blow !! hehe.. jialing and biling pei wo buy de.. xie xie..
Yawn.. i better slp. later still going to shoot!!
Posted by dear benji at 1:25 AM
Wonderful saturday!
Posted by dear benji at 1:25 AM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Check this out!!! PLS!!
WOAH.. guys check this out!!! he is so so amazing. OMG, i can't believe it. Who could imagine combining classics with rock!!! You should check him out.. he is so so cool..i wanna delicate this to Biling; someone who's crazy for rock. Perhaps you might like it.. hahaha. give your comments about him on the tag dudes! =)
it's on the second video down the list.. i dunno how to add it in my posting yet =P sorry..
Posted by dear benji at 11:50 PM
Quando Quando Quando
I can't believe it! There are actually 2 person from archery club that is shooting still with Mr Lim. How Fucked up can this be. Poor them, they are still oblivion to Lim's scheming ways of earning money.The people shooting today did not check their brace height. WTH, it's was so absurd. i mean after going for those tuesdays talks , they still dunno what is brace height and the benefits of maintaining their brace height.
NVM, this sat if they don't maintain their brace height; they dun shoot untill they adjust it. The seniors i think will have to do their nocking point if their bow is here. I'm so excited for biling, florence, hanwei and the rest.. I hope the bow comes this saturday!!! Cross my fingers!!! XXXXX(cross =p) i wanna shoot with seniors...
Florence gave very good advice last night, ahhhh.. thank you. I carried out whatever you told me today, and things went pretty smoothly.. Thanks again for contributing, i appreciate it =)
i am listening to Quando, Quando, Quando by Michael Buble now. And it's certainly a soothing music. That's the type of music i crave for!!! =) erm, i dunno how to add the song to my blog yet.. once i learnt it i will place it up for you peeps to enjoy!
Posted by dear benji at 10:43 PM
I wanna ask you something..
DO you feel that i'm irritating?? erm, no. i mean seriously.. do you feel as though i am erm.. well.. what is that word? er, you feel that i am clingy? trying too hard?? that sort of thing ? argh.. i dunno where i stand and that to me is ... ok , that feeling suck. And i wanna know.i am refering to you.. yar, you!! the one that is looking at my blog now. Pls reply it on my tag or sms straight away. That'll be nice, the least you could do to help me.
Posted by dear benji at 12:09 AM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
WTH- i failed the test !
This is nuts, i can't believe i failed the test for my eec. Argh.. what did i do? Everyone thought it was an easy to score test. Darn. Anyway, who else can i blame expect myself for not studying hard enough.I had a retest for it, and i impressively took 15mins or less, to complete it. Oh well, i could only get 50% for it.
After the test at abt 3.01pm, i went over to the basketball court where the rest of my buddies were. We took on BIGGER boys and LOST. =) haha, serve us right for not knowing where we stand.
After that, i went over to the lib, waited for biling , hanwei, shanti and rasmi to study - sweaty and smelly of course .
that's abt it lar. i dun understand how to doing my EL tech. Impendance Z thing. argh.. and i still have so much to do like my Maths online, programming project which is due next week, friday and my El Tech web tutorial..
Since my thursdays are free, i better do those (as mentioned above) while waiting for time to pass.
Audrey is going to malaysia today, i'm so gonna miss her. Not gonna talk to her or see her till she comes back on sunday. =(
STOP NAGGING,The training plan for this saturday will be up shortly.
Posted by dear benji at 7:02 PM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Flowers for any occasion- anyone???
These are flowers that are in the process of dying.. I just feel that blue roses are so so special.. argh.. I seldom see blue roses around. i screwed up some of the roses pretty badly. That bouqet of holland roses cost around $35 during peak periods like Valentine's Day and also Mother's Day. So if you really wanna get something for your mum or gal fren , i suggest that you do it yourself if not you can buy it after the actual day,but it loses the meaning isn't it?
Har har.. this is the blue rose that i dyed for valentine's day. It took the life out of me, i had to detorn it , make sure it that the flowers are "thiristy" before placing them in the special blue dye used by flourist. Fingers bled and thorns in my thumb. OUCH!!!
Posted by dear benji at 10:45 AM
thanks to Miss biling
argh.. i didn't feel like waking up today. I had a late night , staying up to do up the blog which i've just created.The blog looks alot nicer, after Miss Biling helped me to change it. =)She's a very good teacher. I didn't know how to change the skins, add pictures, add video thank god there was someone there whom is willing to help..
Archery is on today, i dread tuesdays. My classes are packed till 5pm and after that i still have to go for archery talk by our coach. By the time, i think i'll end at 7pm.. I hope we can resume noraml trainings again since Pesta Sukan is around the corner.. Just 1 more month away!!!
I am still thinking on how to make the Trainings on sat and thursday more objective, instead of just going there to "shoot". I mean there are more to archery than just shooting. There is the building of back muscles as so one can be able to endure a longer period of training session. Training of stance, as mentioned in our 9 steps; one has to find the best stance and stay with it in order to be consistant.
There is so much to be done and there must be somewhere where we can start from. I'll post my ideas up for sat training once i finalise it with Hanwei and Thinese.
i can't believe it, i am actually blogging while in class. argh, have to buck up on maths.