Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Titan Recurve Scope

This Titan Recurve scope cost 99 AUD.. I am thinking of getting this.. Darn, so expensive for a scope.. One thing i am sure is that this scope will last forever...

Posted by dear benji at 7:31 PM

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Thats my goal - Shayne Ward


(MV)Shayne Ward - That's My Goal

You know where I've come from,
You know my story,
You know why I'm standing here...
Tonight,
Please don't go,
Don't be in a hurry,
I'm here to make it clear,
Make it right,

Well I know I've acted foolish,
But I promise you no more,
I've finally found that something
Worth reaching for,

I'm not here to say I'm sorry,
I'm not here to lie to you,
I'm here to say I'm ready,
That I've finally thought it through,
I'm not here to let you're love go,
I'm not giving up oh no,
I'm here to win your heart and soul,
That's my goal.

Please don't go,
You know that I need you,
And can't breath without you,
Live without you,
Be without you,
Well I know I've acted foolish,
But I promise you no more,

I'm not here to say I'm sorry,
I'm not here to lie to you,
I'm here to say I'm ready,
That I've finally thought it through,
I'm not here to let you're love go,
I'm not giving up oh no,
I'm here to win your heart and soul,
That's my goal.

Well I won't stop believing,
That we will be leaving together,
So when I say I love you,
I mean it forever and ever,
ever and ever....

I'm not here to say I'm sorry,
I'm not here to say I'm sorry,
I'm not here to lie to you,
I'm here to say I'm ready,
That I've finally thought it through,
I'm not here to let you're love go,
I'm not giving up oh no,
I'm here to win your heart and soul,
Yes I'm here to win your heart and soul,
That's my goal....

Posted by dear benji at 7:53 PM


Had a weird dream today. It was Doomsday, and i couldnt leave behind something, but in the end i decided to go on and ride on a very fast going bus. I saw Gab and Chua, had damn dangerous terrain. Woke up in sweat and was glad that i am in the right world.

Die luh, i damn lazy now. Got alot of projects but just too tired to do anything. damn tired.. not physical , perhaps mentally tired and exhausted.

Classes ended early today, so i headed to Gab's house to MH with him and also tried his PS3. Sheesh, that PS3 is a beauty. I tried "Devil May Cry 4" . It swell!! Graphics damn cool and also the game play is just simply out of this world. WHOSSH>

Here are some of the pictures that we took the other day at the Teck Whye..


Posted by dear benji at 12:42 AM

Monday, July 21, 2008

wah.. shoik.. shot 70m today.

Feels good when the arrows hit the board.

Met nice people today, Benedict and Matthew. They are so funny luh, bickering at each other. Farking funny.. Nice people and they meant it the nice way. Now i am addicted to shoot at tbac.

Sure Loc Legacy.. how good can it get ? (:

Now thinking of how i can get money for my x10 and soma stabs. I need(arrows) 500 +(stabs) 300. Where the hell do i get $800 from ?

Yea, Derrick is finishing his attachment soon. Cant wait to see him back at school shooting!! WOOTS!

Posted by dear benji at 12:25 AM

Sunday, July 20, 2008

I got myself my Dream Sight !! The one that i always wanted so badly . Thank you god, you work in wonderful ways. Thanks to LL too..

I spent $518 on it.


I shot my 50's today. Had a great grouping , need to work harder with the clicking on longer timing. I do well if i click on time, that is 3 secs. If there is sudden wind and i take a longer time to aim, i tend not to be able to click.

The next thing i am going to get is Soma Stabs. I already ordered from Guan. But suddenly Tang came today giving a good price. i took it up and decided to cancel order. Damn, that dark fat bitch is buying it also.. Fuck... The last thing i want is for that particular person to have the same thing as me.. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

Posted by dear benji at 12:23 AM

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

There's this band that have the most interesting song.

I present you "The Ting Ting"


This is the best picture i could find from the GOOGLE search. LOL..

That girl on the left is 14 years old only. Come on, i dont believe it too, but that was what it was said.

Here's it : That's Not My Name



And here's another one; Ting Ting being the original singer but this guy took their song and made it a little interesting.



Listen to the lyrics for this one.. A little interesting.. haha.

Posted by dear benji at 7:36 PM

Do take some time to do the POLL by the side bar (:

Posted by dear benji at 12:24 AM

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

I am going to try standardize a few things for archery.

Seems that i am doing so much things for archery club then my studies.

I hate it when people read my blog and infer things from it. I mean, you can always ask and do not assume. Some people think that i am farking free to be able to blog. But do you know that i blog whenever i am farking stressed, or when i need to express something and get it out of my mind to carry on my day.

So people.. stop inferring and if you want stop reading my blog . FO.

Posted by dear benji at 11:12 PM

RED CLIFF


today actually wanted to go shoot de , but when i woke up , my muscles are still aching from yesterday's pull up session.

Today's movie : Red Cilff

A great movie overall, but the end of the movie is so fucked up. It says to be continued .
I like the company with the aerospace group. There was no need to hold back anything. Just say it out.

Though i knew them since the beginning of this year, it felt as though i knew them for a long long time already. Nice company.. really.. have you ever had this kind of friends before? I had, but that was secondary school. And darn long time ago ;everyone is so busy now.

Saw a "bob" hair girl at Lot 1 begawan solo. She damn cute.. I somehow have something for "bob" girls . But they have cant be too short and small.. not like erm.. some of our archery girls. haha.. too small size..

I like this girl XD


Have to draw a new design for my heli(FYP) and also finish up AAA report. And Panel Assessment is this coming August. I do not think i will have time to go for the coming Pesta Sukan competition..

Posted by dear benji at 10:17 PM

i just wanna be myself..

Posted by dear benji at 12:24 AM

Saturday, July 12, 2008

I need hulk more often..

It is not coming out when i need it most.

It was the same old problem when i had a session with Audrey.

"what am i afraid about?"

"why don't i let it out?"

Posted by dear benji at 9:06 PM

Friday, July 11, 2008

aiyah..

this sat got national trial. i didnt know till i heard from Teng Ng.

Friday Morning lesson. The AAA teacher was fuming mad. he said our class no one wants to listen in class, wasting his time and our time. He told us we could take how long of a break we want. I havent been in this situation for a long time, the last time was in sec sch.
Well, not that i am the one that isnt listening, i am the one that is sleeping most of the time.

break's over.. back to his lesson. i hope he cools down.

Posted by dear benji at 10:47 AM

Thursday, July 10, 2008


yeah.. we went to watch " HANCOCK" today.

It is a 4.5/5 if u ask me (:
It's simply nice, i dun want to spoil it for you, just go catch it with whomever u can grab.

Went with Wu Lieh, Mark, Gab, Clifford and Jon.

Then behind got these 3 Indian fuckers.. not that i dun like indians, my god mothers are indians too. farking CB... Jon kindly asked them to keep their volume down, but was returned by more rudeness.

So , since afternoon there weren't many people in the cinema, we moved to the front to watch the movie and i am glad we did that, because we so enjoyed the movie.

When the movie ended, they waited at the alley, (we watched at westmall, if u understand how westmall works, once u finish the movie u walk by the alley till u hit the main doors) . KNNBCCB, mother fuckers, ITE FUCKS, they wait there and stare stare, then keep pointing at us.

Heng we all temperament ok de, if it was last time when in boys town, they confirm kena wack by use liao lor.. They are what Michael calls FARKTARDS..

After movie , when makan..

Then i had to rush for National Coaching Level One's Exam.. Finally, all the hard work and dragging myself to the course for Tues and Thurs is finally over. I was a little afraid that i might fail.

3 WORDS - Piece of Cake

Let me see, now for my Level 2... Need to thank George for this.

I came home and saw LL, she's so pretty today.. She was in her new outfit.

Posted by dear benji at 11:19 PM

Wednesday, July 09, 2008



HAHA.. Couldnt help it XD

Mika swell !!! his songs are so... (no words can describe) Listening to : Happy Ending- CLICK HERE if you haven't heard it !

SO SAD and nice. His songs are so "HUMAN" .


Happy Ending
[chorus]
This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending
No hope no love no glory, no happy ending
This is the way that we love, like it's forever
Then live the rest of our lives, but not together

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
Mmm a little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
This is the hardest story that I have ever told
No hope or love or glory, happy endings gone forevermore
and I~~
feel as if I'm wasting
and I'm~~
wasting everday

[chorus]

Two o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest, keep walking around
If I pretend that nothing ever went wrong
I can get to my sleep I can think that we just get it on

this is the hardest story that I have ever told
no hope or love or glory, happy ending's gone forevermore
'cos I~~
feel as if I'm wasted
and I'm~~
wasting everyday

[chorus]

little bit of love...

[chorus to fade out]

next segment--
--
over my shoulder, running away
feels like I'm falling, losing my day
cold...and dry...cold...and dry
forget my daylight, torture my night
feels like I'm falling, far out of sight
cold...drunk...time...lost

over my shoulder, running away
feels like I'm falling, losing my way
cold...run...cold...and dry
forgot my daylight, torture my night
feels like I'm falling, far out of sight
cold...drunk...cold...and drunk...

Posted by dear benji at 11:22 PM


I am not going for training today. After Gym session, my body ached and immune system went down. Need to build up gradually also.

The power triangle is really important, i need to get Chow to take my pic from the top. Have been wanting to do that for a long time but was always distracted my small small stuff.

Chow and I have a hobby, burning things. Anyone seen a target sheet burnt to ashes before ? (btw, it is old target sheet, old tattered and torn.)

Posted by dear benji at 11:04 AM

Cute isnt she ?

PLEASE DO FUME IF YOU SEE THIS: THOUGHT THAT WAS A CUTE PICTURE.

melissa suddenly came and chat with me this morning..
I slipped and said something awkward and now.. it is silence..

when i talk to mel, i think of sj,valerie as well.. we were such good friends once. And we also promised to meet up every year without fail. I guess like what sj said, things have changed, not so naive as before. It hurts to see things change that way.

Some inferiority complex, diff in ideas made things this way. I guess we will never be the sort that can chat together normally. Compared to last time when we were younger.

Mel went to hk with this classmate of hers. (male)

my first thought was" hey, this isnt right"

Looking at the modern society, my way of thinking and morals are prolly outdated maybe. If i was her dad, i would never have let her go on a holiday with another guy.

no more feelings for her anymore: she is a gf material, but not a wife material. My pocket will have a big hole even before i can save enough for my X10s. I remember Audrey saying something about her:" she said ........... oh well , best not to bring it up.

clubbing sort ? nah, i am not into that. One night at MOS was enough to kill me. Kriz was asking if u want to go Zouk this coming Thurs- i am so not sure. I don't want to turn into a walking zombie when i hit school the next day.

Posted by dear benji at 10:43 AM

Havent felt so weak for a long time.

Had training yesterday and it took the toil out of me. My muscles (whole body) is at a whole new level and making all movements hard/painful.

I shouldn't even have went to shoot today, instead i should let my body rest .

I didn't know so many people actually read my blog. Silent readers.. muhahaa.. looking at the stuff i wrote.. so many things, i am like "OMG" when i realised.

My room is in a mess, i packed the living room and didnt pack my room the other day. DARN. Need to mop .. My body damn tired luh.

National Coaching Level 1 test is coming soon. This thursday.. wah, i must study hard for this, i certainly do not want to fail. Spend to much time on this , every tues and thurs..

A new way of pulling my bow today; usually my wrist is flat, now it looks like the best method, this time i didnt have to force it, it comes naturally.. Not sure if it is because i am tired and my body adapts to different way of pulling the bow.




Last thing, people that read my blog:

I express how i feel on this blog, i say everything out here, so that i do not have to say it out to someone's face when i see them . If you know of anyone i am talking about here, it's always great to keep things that way and keep quiet about it.

Posted by dear benji at 1:06 AM

Monday, July 07, 2008

i heard from CCB a few days back and found out that JL actually thought so little of me. I am real disappointed when i heard it, but then again, i think i deserve.

What was i actually trying to do anyway.. i think that is just so me.. someone who likes to have fun. I didnt know that it made me look like an idiot. NOW I KNOW>>

On the lighter note, i ran 2.4 on the tracks, my timing is 12.21, i need to get faster, back in the old days at boys town i was running 10.30 below. Of course, that was hardcore training, thanks to those training i might have injured my knee caps and spine.

i have to get faster with shuttle run too.

i bought andy's head phone for 30 dollars today, it wasnt what i wanted but i still bought it because so pai sei, he brought it down all the way from his hse and waited for me at block 6. Ugh, the bass wasnt what i expected, there are much better ones around that cost 50++.

Posted by dear benji at 6:52 PM

I am very very happy with my new string (:

Angel Dyneema with Pink servings.. haha..

that i will stand out (:

i am hitting 6 arrows in the yellow region @ 30m .
i am hitting 6 arrows in the yellow region @ 50m.
i am hitting 6 arrows in the yellow region @ 70m.
i am hitting 6 arrows in the yellow region @ 90m.

i am and i will.

Posted by dear benji at 12:51 AM

Goals
By Lanny Bassham
How important is writing down your goals? Well. Linda Thom, Olympic champion in pistol
shooting in the 1984 Olympics from Canada credits writing down her goal to win the gold as
critical to her success. I had the honor of teaching her in 1983 and introducing the concept of the
Goal Statement to the Canadian team in a seminar in Toronto. Here is an excerpt of Linda's
article written after the 1984 games.

A turning point was a clinic which I attended in February 1983. The clinic was given in Toronto by Lanny
Bassham, who is a World Champion rifle shooter from the U.S. Out of his own competitive difficulties,
experienced at the 1972 Olympics; he had dug around and developed what he calls, "The tools of mental
management." That man really spoke to me.
One thing he said was so important, "You've got to write it out. In this country and the United States too,
we don't write our goals out." We're a very literate society otherwise, but we don't seem to write our goals
out.
One of the most important things he found useful for himself was to write out the goal in the first person,
present tense. "I am the 1984 Olympic Gold medalist in Ladies Match Pistol," in my particular case. And
he said, "Write it out in your diary every night, every single night, and one of two things will happen,
either you won't believe it and you'll stop writing it, or you'll keep on writing it and you'll succeed." But
he said, "It really works."
Although I have a journalism degree, I don't like sitting down and writing and I have to make an effort,
but I did make an effort to write my goals in my diary. For 18 months I wrote that I was the Olympic
Champion, every single night in my diary, and it came true. It helped me grapple with myself and my
image of myself as a champion.
"Imagine yourself on the podium," he said. "You have won. You know it's behind you now. The flag is
going up and the anthem is being played. There are the reporters and they're interviewing you. Visualize
all of these things, and savor them."
"Act as if you are going back over your life, the gods have given you the chance to relive this. You've won
it. It's yours. You've got the gold medal. But the gods are giving you the chance to relive and savor your
experiences." You can say, "Hey, I can enjoy this. I'm not just in a headlong rush." I can also notice the
other things in life and enjoy the little steps along the way.

A Goal Statement is a sentence written in the first person present tense about something you
want to have happen. Here are some other examples; I am debt free. I follow through on every
shot. I recover well. I savor my successes and forget my failures.
Are you writing down what you want to have happen in your life? Doing it only one time isn't
enough. Linda found that the real power came from repeatedly writing down her Goal Statement
every day for 18 months. Think of the imprinting her Self Image received from these few
minutes every day. She felt that it was worth it. How badly do you want your goals?

Posted by dear benji at 12:43 AM

the club needs come new direction.

i have some great ideas but just afraid to get shot down.

they need drills..

and work out..

the seniors are especially lazy.
like i expected (:

this malay fat bitch is starting to get on my nerves. i hate the way she looks at me.

I need to spend more time on my studies too..

Posted by dear benji at 12:32 AM

today i woke up.

LL was there..

i didnt get what i wanted..

i was angry.

pissed

she gave in

i gave in

pamper

go makan

come my hse

sweep the floor

LL got angry

LL went back home

Cont to pack my hse & room

sweep sweep, wipe wipe, mop mop

what a tiring, exhausting but satisfying day.

I was real angry just now. my sis dropped my phone resulting in a chip of chrome. And i was sulking over it and angry. It reminds me of how i was when i was young and when i was with audrey. Some things just dun change. Laughs.

missing audrey
hating current state

Posted by dear benji at 12:23 AM

Friday, July 04, 2008

I am at blk 80 now.. I dun know what i am doing, just wandering around, i suspect this has to do with not having enough sleep.

FYP Panel Assessment went well.. nothing to worry about and the teacher commented we did good. Thumbs up for that at least..

I wanted to shoot after that but ZJ is holding on to the keys. Both the keys in fact are with him. DARN.. DEAD bored.

I need to go submit my DCT NOW>>>
And later when i feel like it i will pass up my script fot RMV to the teacher.

Posted by dear benji at 4:20 PM

damn..

tired , never sleep enough last night..

FYP panel in about 30mins time..

Heart beats fast...

Scared that i say the wrong thing..

Posted by dear benji at 1:01 PM

Thursday, July 03, 2008

shit

i forgot - this Saturday is my step sister birthday and she wanted to have it at PLAY . No time to go leh, because i got panel assessment on Friday morning.

Anyway, while talking to chow, he showed me some stuff from KSL webbie.

When an archer is shooting for nothing,
He has all his skills.
If he shoots for a brass buckle,
he is already nervous.
If he shoots for a prize of gold,
he goes blind or already sees two targets--
He is out of his mind!
His skill has not changed,
but the prize divides him.
He cares.
He thinks more of winning than of shooting--
And the need to win drains him of power.

Chang Tzu

Posted by dear benji at 1:26 AM

phew.. DCT project is finally done, i hope i do not get marks deducted for late submission..
(AHHEM, i am a week late)

Thanks to LL for helping me scan some of the sources from the books i borrowed from the library.
You know , there are certain words that i could never be able to spell it right like the "library".. i always had to relay on the word corrector..

Now to my FYP; panal assessment 2 is this coming friday. I am very sure our group will be able to pull it off like we did the other time. Of course this time i felt i put in alot of effort compare to the previous. Anyway, it is a give and take, no need to draw the line to clearly if not it will become a problem like what jon's group is experiencing..

Archery;
I havent said anything much about archery right ? Oh well, things are going ok. I hear from chow that grace is feeling very stress. I understand that, and she wants to stop being a Vice Captain, that i also understand, i have been there before also. Somehow i feel that she needs to struggle a little more .

I think YZ , EDDY are very selfish people. I know it is not right to judge them just like that, but i have been having weird feelings towards them. I just do not like the feeling.. Anyway, i dun understand why everyone is ok about the music cept for him. If he has a problem then mute the volume whenever comes online to the blog. ASS..

Ahh.. felt better ranting .. =P

Thanks to Mervin from archery club, my junior. I have DJ MAX on the other PSP. I can play with LL and we both can train. My data also load faster now, therefore i can play with everyone.. You hear that IZZul ?
hahaha..

I am training every:
Friday is my offday =)

Archery is an addiction is for me. Nothing like the feeling of well placed arrow in the target =)

Oh yar, something from Chow's nick which i like haha: We buy things we don't need, with money we don't have, just to impress people we don't know

There is some truth in chow's nick..
i wll stop for now.. dead tired. need to go back to projects.

Posted by dear benji at 12:56 AM