Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Dorothy is choosing between Assumption English or Tanglin sec. I hope she chose the latter. Anyway, she scored 207 not as good as compared to valentine to previously score 224 but at least it is better than me who scored 156.

She deleted my tagged, I wonder if she takes feedback seriously. (sigh) why take it so negatively? I just don't understand. I know that she is an introvert but never did I expect her to be the extreme side of introverted.

Such a disappointment, just as I was thinking that I am getting somewhere. sheesh, a lesson learnt-Never think to far ahead when it comes to *****.

"When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile.

Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well."

An abstract from 'Yesterday once more' sung by "the carpenters".

I miss the times where I was in boys town, every morning I hear the radio come on and it will be the time to wake up. It was usually class 95. Go to bath and wait for some of my favorite music to come on. The whole group of us will sing in the toilet. hehe, it is soo fucking interesting and fun.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TX5D22lNg74

check this link out if you're an archer, Athens Archery =)

i am still searching it.. you know, i know. i know you know. duh

Posted by dear benji at 11:10 AM

Thursday, November 23, 2006

I don’t know why, but I am feeling very vex. Wait, maybe I do know why. What the fuck am I trying to say? I just want to kill some time here, I can’t sleep.

Listening to R.Kelly-the worlds greatest; an amazing song, but not an amazing singer. HE RAPED A 17 year old girl. To think that this song has motivated billions in the world and the singer turned out to be such a disappointment. Now that I spoke about disappointment, I think I am feeling disappointed with myself. I don’t feel like going into it, not today.

This is a fact that I heard from one of my archery mates, that when you eat more than you normally do, your stomach will stretch and once it does, it will take about 2 weeks before it shrink back to its normal or usually size. I am trying hard to shrink it down; well... it’s definitely not hard enough.

(Pondering)… (Wondering)… (Thinking)…

Ok, I think I am ready to sleep. I will fill in my findings in the stages that people are going through before they fall asleep in a boring lecture. Pretty interesting.

Posted by dear benji at 1:23 PM

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

i was looking through the NP archery blog the other day and i felt that the blog was not interactive . I will not censor what i am going to say or tone down my words here because people will have to know how strongly i feel abt this.

The blog was pretty much like any other blog. And the only thing missing was that it needed to be interactive. Think about it? This is a archery blog, our NP archery blog and all it has are announcements? And even it has announcements; i can literally count the number of words in there. And the blog is updated once a week? Sometimes, only when there is an announcement than it is updated and this can be 2weeks once.But thinks about the times when people go in and it is not updated? Even if it is, it's just a few words? I am sure there will be disappointment- for me it is a big disappointment.

The tag board is like an ivory tower. It is there but no one is making use of it. And on top of it, it is difficult to use. I refer to the comment i made on the tag board, i said if possible change it to Cbox. Take a look at Cbox(if you guys know what it is, it is the place where you type comments; just that is is different design), it is much more fun and the interface is much easier to use. (if you still don’t know, the one on my blog is a Cbox).

It is important to have the tagboard interesting and easy to use and approachable, this is to encourage people to come and give comments about training, how happened at training today.This enhances cohensiveness among us archers. It helps to gel the team up. Imagine if people come into the blog and after reading an interesting post, tags how he/she feels and it creates a snowball effect of people thinking and carrying on the tags pertaining to the first person who made the comment. Than on training days, people come and there is an extra topic for all to talk and laugh abt. Nice picture that forms up in your mind isn't it? =)

Now, to the Postings. What can i say about it? it is dead. That's the first word that comes to my mind. Think about it, come onto the blog after receiving a mail and all you see is "Tuesday and Thursday back to normal". And at the end of the day, the message is to that training is back to normal. This can be made much more interesting and intriguing by perhaps adding some jokes to the incidents that we had with the ruby players and how we won't have to see them again. I don't even think any ruby players will come to see that archery blog, because not all the archery members are not aware of NP Archery blog, not all.. So there isn't anything to worry about. So what if they see, what is the worst that can happen? They come and declare a fight? Unlikely; so there is nothing to worry about.

Hopefully no one would see this as a form of complain. This is a FEEDBACK, www.dictionary.com if you dun understand what feedback means. Neither is this posted to pin down anyone. So if anyone takes it personally, i can't help but to say too bad.

Posted by dear benji at 10:19 AM

Monday, November 20, 2006

i had my session at 3pm, it was raining heavily during the session. Anyway, that was not the important part. Important part was that the session went straight to the spot, spot on the problems and manage to discuss about dreams.

The 3dreams i had. After talking about it ,i realise that it was just another of my need that i need to settle. Imgaine i had to bare myself when talking about the dreams.

I am feeling that my arms are starting to give way. i need to go for the chinese massage. It is getting painful with each training. This sunday's training wasn't too good. Arrows were going to the right and my arms were feeling strained.

Posted by dear benji at 6:59 PM

Thursday, November 16, 2006

That damn bag of mine, ugh.. i haven't got enough of cursing and swearing . Haiz, it's wearing me down pretty fast. Even before i get onto the the field to shoot. Silie, you should really get one of that bag, it helps; training mah =)

I saw alexis for the thrid time in school today after the "incident". Ugh, i did't want to make it awakward so i walked another route to block 50. haiz.. i tell you, girls are so sensitive. (sigh)

Here is my aim up the up-coming competition:

30M- 330
50M-250
Total of 580 and above

i had 2 dreams today, and it is pretty amazing that i could remember when i woke up cuz most of the time i forget.

I dreamt of myself on the bed lying , tired after school. And comes this girl, which i know, from the way she was acting and her body language, she must be my girlfriend. She hopped onto the bed asking if i wanna sleep with her on her bed, i was tired from work so i said NO in a very irritated manner. Than she said that she would mind if she comes over my bed to sleep. That was where it got into my mind that she wants to have sex. I could remembered till this point after that i can't remember.

i woke up and looked ard and it was 5.30am. i went back to bed.

The next dream was like continues my first dream. I saw Audrey, and she was questioning me if i had placed any soccer bets lately. I was so darn nervous because she'll kill me if i ever did. Next she asked if i had sex with any girl, i was went "NO, i did not". Like a boy trying to convince his mum that he's really been good for the day. Than to my horror, she threaten that she knew of my wrongdoings. I went "WTF, how did she know" as my heart beat like i had only a minute to live. It was a NIGHTMARE, i swear that it really was. And my heart beat like shit.

i was so relieveto know that it was all a dream =) hehe, it was such a relieve.. i dont' wanna get that kind of dreams ever again. It scared the shit out of me..

Posted by dear benji at 6:04 PM

Friday, November 10, 2006

Recently, i've downloaded the song my Michael Jackson; "Heal the world". I find this song amazing, i love the first part where the little girl sets in and said: "Think about the generations, and if everyone make a better place for children and the childern's childern's so that they know it's a better place for everyone."

IF you have time, go download it. =) it's meaningful

Posted by dear benji at 4:28 PM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

I have to admit that i regreted getting that big bulky bag. Ugh, it was more of a burden than it was of help. Imagine waking up extra early at 6am and say you leave house at 7am so that you get an hour to get to the school without having to fight for space in the bus with the majority of the students. phew.. today was a classic example.

I wanted to borad the first 154 which came along, but guess what it was already filled to the entrance. i pretty much guessed that some would alight and there would be enough space for me to borad. But NO the people around me struggled to get INFRONT of me. Darn, singaporens! so you know that basic rule of giving way? Does one have to get a driving licence just to know how to give way?! geez!! i was totally pissed.

Next, i had a hard time looking for a place to sit. In the end i decided that it would be best if i go to the back and stand. I had a late night and so much for wanting a place to sleep while i get to school. I just want to bring to you the attention of Singaporens being so impolite, and of someone without courtesy. The goverment should start the "Courtesy Campaign" again. Singaporeans are so "robotic" only when the goverment initiates a campaign than they begin to work towards that 'goal'. Once campiagn's over, they go back to their normal self. This illustrate the IMF event clearly. When it was the IMF period, the SMILE campaign initiated many to provide good services. Now when it is over, you see the sales person back to their "slacking" mode.

How can a country like Singapore lack something so important? Hopfully one day, this society will be a better place to live in. May god be the light that guides our way =)

Posted by dear benji at 12:59 AM

Friday, November 03, 2006

ahhh.. BLOCKED. anyway. i dun have no intentions of going further than that.

i was day dreaming again, and this time i saw myself as a fallen angel. One who has grey feathered wings. I was flying like any other normal days out in the skies. Inside me , i am different from every other angel. Of course my wings were different; grey. The others had white wings. Somehow, god never told me i was different, but deep down i knew.

anyway, after that i came back to my world.. but i am sure i will day dream again on monday when the boring lectures start. heh...

i have been feeling somehow, stranded lately. I can't move or perhaps i am restricted. I dun think i am going for pauline's bday tml. I dun wanna "clash" there. i know what i am refering to there.. i dun want things to get ugly, its damn ugly already. perhaps time can help to clam the seas. Like what i always believe, after a storm comes a peaceful sea.

Just in this instance, a cute gal from FMS approached me and ask if she could borrow my mouse. Of course i said YES!! heh.. so i am without my mouse for the moment.

i am gonna do my EM now.. may blog later if i'm feeling bored.

Posted by dear benji at 5:49 PM

Thursday, November 02, 2006

i believe everything happens for a reason.

why i am here

why i went to MTE

why i was born a catholic

why am i the eldest in the family

why was i the only one that go to church

why was i the one that needed to fork out the money

why does the burden seems heavier on this side the the other

i can go on for another 1001 "whys"

Things have just been pilling up and i need to do something abt it. What's with that female? sheesh.. "you're too frank" "you're too serious" "relax" what's with you?.. ugh..

Posted by dear benji at 11:23 PM

xis

things change according to feelings
somethings it may be a little difficult
somethings it may be a little too easy
things just dun always go the way we want it to go

we live with it, and make sure things go alright
trying to conceal the light in our eyes
i try to make it feel so real
by pouring all onto you

than it turned out that i made a fool out of you and me
i tried to do some damage control by still trying to be the same
but somehow being the same old me does not change any fact
perhaps things should never have came out of that mouth
nor should it be ever spoken of like a taboo

still i know that deep down within
I am who i wanna be.