Tuesday, February 17, 2009

My MSD final test is tml but i just dont seem very interested in studying . I think it has to do with me knowing that i am going to finish school in 2 weeks time . Knowing that i am graduating in a week's time, i feel really slack, perhaps a little over confident that i am gonna pass and get my diploma anyway. I do not see this in my friends but i think some of them are feeling the same way too. Its just the same feelings as i was leaving sec school and boys town. Anxiety is what i am feeling, scared also. I do not think i will be going into any university, with my results like that , i wonder if i will be just one of those many faces in the crowd. Looking at signing on with the army or either SIA as engineer.

Alright, gotta go back to studying . Last but not least, i have been thinking abt getting that bike. Reall expensive and i am not sure if i am going to use that on a long term basis. Mum always say : "buy what u need, not what you want."

Posted by dear benji at 2:23 PM

Monday, February 09, 2009

OMG


OMG - Audition

Dear God,
Did you get the message?
Little boy is on his way to heaven
Doctors tried, did all they can
His fate now lies in your hands

Oh God
Can’t help wondering
What happens to the missing children
On the cartons of milk in the grocery store
Faces look at me, wanting more

Reaching out, climbing up this hill of uncertainty
Got my head bowed down, can you, will you help them?
I’m kneeling, writhing, shouting, see me
Praying, waiting, wanting reasons
Just need to know, so let it go, let it go
Let it go

[Chorus:
Touch me, dare to touch me
Let me feel the, can’t you hear me, oh my god
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god
You can't stop it, you can't change it]

Face me, I’ll embrace the
Turn your eyes to mine
Shine your spotlight down on me

Oh god
You know its happening
But you can't control, can't stop it
Give us hope, give us strength
To guide us through those dreadful days

Oh god
I see what you can see
Cause your lights shining down on me
You see the little kids, see the tragedies
And you hold their hands, when they can’t breathe

Reaching out, climbing up this hill of uncertainty
Got my head bowed down, can you, will you help them?
I’m kneeling, writhing, shouting, see me
Praying, waiting, wanting reasons
Just need to know, so let it go, let it go
Let it go

[Chorus]

Face me, I’ll embrace the
Turn your eyes to mine
Shine your spotlight down on me

Kneeling on the top of a hill with my arms reached out
Can you see me?
Shouting at the sky as the clouds go rolling by
Can you hear me?
Kneeling at the foot of my bed when the lights dim out
Can you see me?
Head bowed down, can you help me out?
Help me out?

[Chorus]

Taste me, dare to taste me
Let me open up the mosting, oh my god
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god

Let him chant, let him chant, let him chant, let him chant
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god

Face me, I’ll embrace the
Will you turn your eyes to mine?
Shine your spotlight down on me

Posted by dear benji at 8:05 PM

Friday, February 06, 2009

The Invitation


It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain!I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithlessand therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not pretty, every day,and if you can source your own life from its presence.
The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer, book cover

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes!”

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

by
Oriah Mountain Dreamer

Posted by dear benji at 9:41 AM

The reason why we were able to meet
the people who supported us up to now
and to our bright future,
I extend my sincere gratitude and blessings.

Posted by dear benji at 2:02 AM

Thursday, February 05, 2009

I seriously cant wait to graduate from poly ~! yahooo

i want to get a bicycle and commute from home to training grounds.. so tempting to get the Hasa 9.0 or Giant Yukon from Iitoo, the haro (last pic) out of the picture bah, because it is a stunt bike.

Posted by dear benji at 12:46 PM

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

I am starting to see myself stopping my archery career =(

The interest is still there, just that if i weigh money and archery on a balance scale, it would tilt to money. People do change, last time when i was year 1 & 2. Archery seems to be the the top priority.

I have 1 more week to major exams, and after that , no need to go school anymore. And in my free time i can shoot 7 days a week. I am so looking forward to that.

This is what i did on tuesday..


I pimped my quiver into a magnetic one. Really fun to play with. I am hoping i can earn some money converting people's quiver to magnetic.

BAE homework not done.
SMC quiz halfway done.
Revision not done..

Need to get all those done by friday.

Posted by dear benji at 10:24 AM