Friday, April 30, 2010




Posted by dear benji at 1:33 AM

I AM DYING TO MEET HER !

I dont know.. its just that kind of feeling . Oh well, i should put that aside for now. (i am trying to be nonchalant about it). I am afraid of putting too much it. There is a high chance that it might not turn out well . HIGH CHANCE I SAID. I dont think i am impressive compared to the other guys that might be on the hots for her. )): nvm ben, If you'd never try. You never gonna know.


I have been working the night shift this week, its awesomely fun and relaxed. I like it that way. And i dont have to see Lim that often. I feel very pressurized . I asked for permission to ride to work while he was leaving. Its a yes. well, half yes and no. he does allow me to ride in the night. ): i mean he doesn't understand. I have been riding for so long already, and its actually safer to ride in the night as there are lesser cars on the road.

Posted by dear benji at 12:44 AM

Sunday, April 18, 2010





Guess what i saw ?!

Posted by dear benji at 10:48 PM

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Note: audio track is NSFW (use headphones).



In Hungary, the Ministry of Economics and Transport actually has a Deputy Minister for cycling by the name of Adam Bodor. Bodor's job, put simply, is to get people on their bikes. And so they've produced this ad campaign, meant to convey the idea that cycling is sexy...

Posted by dear benji at 11:11 PM

Thursday, April 15, 2010

FREAKING AWESOME MAN!! BENJAMIN GOT SLIVER FOR THIS IPPT!!

you guys cant believe how excited i am with getting sliver. I cant believe i got 225 for my standing broad jump!! i passed it with my own ability and i am sooo damn happy!

i told gaston and yan sheng about jo. I wanna see her eat that whole Super Star up !

Posted by dear benji at 10:25 PM

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


BENJAMIN CHUA IS ENTERING UNKNOWN WATERS !

i dont know how things will end up at this stage. I've got to say that maple syrup is very accommodating and is very forgiving in archery terms. I've done some brave moves but maple syrup is taking it well.

2 more weeks to be able to see maple syrup.

I am hoping this will turn out well.

I feel very scared

I wish this story would have a happy and lasting ending.

I do feel inferior , but i need to be aware that:

  1. education does not comprehend one's ability to love
  2. age does not affect love
  3. money isnt the big priority.
  4. fun is the most important factor
  5. sparks must fly !! A MUST


When running out of topics, share the feelings/thoughts.
Pace yourself and dont look so farking desperate dude. (i am not desperate to begin in the first place)
just be myself.... like how it used to be.


Lotus bloom, mud enriches , and nature flows..

Posted by dear benji at 12:23 AM

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

I dont know if i would ever live my dream.. I was overwhelmed with sadness today when i realised that i might never get anywhere if i were to stay in AF. I teared a little, i would have cried if there wasnt anyone around.

I went down all excited curious about my OJT. Things didnt look good when i asked FWO. He threw a stack of notes wanting me to convert those CMC stuff to powerpoint slides. I was ok doing it, at first i had hopes of him putting me as controller or tools room . Now, i can just see myself helping them to convert notes for the meanwhile. It is very sad.

I always believe one should live their dream. Even now, i still believe one should live their dream. I was touched, really touched when i read that blog of that couple who lived their dreams and went on a around the world trip on their motorbikes. The human spirit never dies. I like the song from Prince of Egypt : When you believe. The verse which touched me most was "Though hope is frail,it's hard to kill."

I have been feeling very lonely for sometime. I dont think i have found the miss right yet. Perhaps she would just be the one. Things are not going smooth for i feel inferior to her. I was trained since bth times to be confident but deep down, i hope high hopes but feel very very very inferior. Degree/family's prolly above average/life's always been great for her. Ugh, that sort of thing goes through my mine.

2 weeks later will be the day . I am excited , but also very worried . I am afraid of being played and hurt because from what i am going through, it seems like i am gonna put quite alot of effort and hopes on her. May god bless me.














Sad sad benjamin ):


Posted by dear benji at 1:02 AM