Tuesday, June 09, 2009

It always get me jealous whenever i hear Grace going out with Nic. I get the feeling that he is trying to woo her, but whenever i talk to Grace about this, she passes it off as they are good friends..
How i came to this conclusion was:

  1. He was one of the 3 that told Grace to break up with me.
  2. Grace did "nobody" dance for his bday.(why dont other girls dance for him?)
  3. He jioed Grace Lan Gaming today.
It hurts me alot to see her treating me badly. I get the feeling that she wants me to suffer the same as she was doing the past years. I only have 34 days left before army. I really do not want to go into the army heartbroken. I hope this can be a relationship that gives me strength.

I am trying very hard to tell her how sorry i was . I really miss the old times we had together. She is only nice to me in the night, just before she is going to sleep or really early in the morning just when we wake up. Love shouldnt be like this. My heart yearns for the old times.

I have been trying to get her to know more of my friends, i hope this can help bring us closer together. I think it is time that i settle with Kang Zhu and Nic.

I didnt tell grace this before, but suejen was the one that broke up with me. it hurted me alot so much that i didnt dare to go into the next relationship, that was when Grace came along and help smoothen things out. She was always there for me.

God, please help me to pull through this. Grace is someone i really love.

Posted by dear benji at 8:19 PM