Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Chemistry

I dunno if it was appropriate to give things to her so fast. The idea just came and "wack" i went to do it, it was a long time since i did such impulsive stuff. I felt like a small kid again, the secondary boy that sort of thing where you go give something to the girl you're interested in. But nevertheless, i felt great doing things on impulse, i feel that as i grew older, i am beginning to lose the ability to do things on impulse. I would like to assume that doing things on impulse is equal to creativity. I lost that along the way as i was growing up; afraid that the people around me judge me the way i do things.

I was once told by an adult when i was young that purple and brown don't go well together, "why do you have to choose that colour". With that, i was a little disappointed, i didn't expect that reaction. Instead, i would like something with, "WOW, that's a job well done, you've done a great job, keep it up ". I swear that when i grow up, i am gonna treat my children the way i wanted myself to be treated. Of course not extreme pampering luh.

I wonder if the opposite felt the same way as i do, of course that would be very ideal but looking at the situation i do not get the vibes that it is working out. Something is missing, something exciting is really missing. Tsk tsk.. (2mins) I pondered on what was missing and one word came clear in my mind- Chemistry. That is missing; the gist of the courtship is missing. I wonder how do i get it to work? Perhaps time will do the job for us, so i am going to hang on longer to see what happens =) ahhem, i need feedbacks =P not from the readers, but from her.

Posted by dear benji at 8:07 PM